aaaand I’m getting extremely negative and defensive about my interpretation of Steve vs. other peoples and thats just fucking unneeded

I’m letting it go cuz it doesn’t matter and I shouldn’t be a jerk about this shit. No more Steve, only storyboards now

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7 hours ago

7/29/14
3:50

He was sweet enough to bust into a HYDRA camp and save his boyfriend ;) And apologise to Sam for intruding on him first thing in the morning (which we *know* Sam doesn’t mind…)

eeeehhhh I would not categorize those as ‘sweet’, because while Steve went after Bucky out of love, it wasn’t an expression of love. It was him saving Bucky because Bucky deserved to be saved. And apologizing to Sam was polite, and a sign of respect and trust. 

Like both of these things can be seen as sweet, but only when framed that way by an outsider. Boil Steve’s actions down and the reasoning behind them is rarely ‘sweet’ because that’s far more emotion than Steve Rogers is willing to share

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7 hours ago

7/29/14
3:19
#amuseoffyre

…when has MCU!Steve done anything sweet for anyone else.

Someone reblogged my thing and said Steve is sweet.

Like the most sweet thing we’ve seen him do is offer his unwilling date some peanuts. His last call to Peggy could be viewed as sweet, though it was more circumstance than Steve himself—he was trying to use the same deflecting snark as he always has to avoid having to talk about Actual Feelings he may Actually Be Experiencing, whist said Actual Feelings were breaking him apart at the seams. 

Like seriously how do you define sweet and how the fuck is Steve Rogers that thing???

I think this is confusing the box with the guy inside it

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7 hours ago

7/29/14
3:11
#Steve Rogers #and his box #is apparently a metaphor I'm holding on to

fUCK 

okay to be clear in that Sam meta I posted, it was meant to read ‘Sam is NOT responsible for Steve’s happiness.’

that is a very important ‘not’ that I apparently did not actually type

shit is fixed now oh god

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7 hours ago

7/29/14
3:05

fashion-runways:

RAMI KADI Un Souffle d’Orient Collection

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7/29/14
3:02
#clusters #eye strain #trypophobia #reference

atswim-twocows asked:
Your deconstruction of Steve Rogers is a thing of beauty; you are terrifying and a genius. My heart is in pieces on the floor and I love you.

alkjsdfsdfasdf you are a darling. I accept this most precious of offerings /scoops heart up and puts it in a pretty jar on ser desk

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7 hours ago

7/29/14
2:58
#atswim-twocows

How terrifying is James Spader on set? x

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7/29/14
2:57
#yee #god tho someone take those sleeves out a bit #bb looks like he's losing circulation there at the shoulders #chris evans #gif

okay but I’m gonna need a gif of Chris running his hands over his legs and whining “I need my shield ;A;” from this interview

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8 hours ago

7/29/14
2:39

thedragonflywarrior:

The Body Shapes of the World’s Best Athletes Compared Side By Side

Health and fitness comes in all shapes and sizes. Every single one of these athletes is a certified bad-ass.

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8 hours ago (via)

7/29/14
2:38
#long post #partial nudity #bare chest / #flat chest / #reference #love this post

I seriously zero-ed in on the negative, mostly because I get frustrated by how little attention Steve’s issues and flaws get. So that write-up is very one-sided. Steve isn’t just his depression, frustration and self-loathing. He’s a lot of things.

Like I shot down a few positive qualities that people tend to give him that I don’t agree with. I don’t think he’s good with people. I think he struggles with people and not in a shy way, but in a ‘I can think of seven million rude-ass things to respond with and only five that are only mildly-rude so maybe I should just keep my mouth shut’ way.

I don’t think he’s so inherently good that he doesn’t struggle doing the right thing or being a nice person. That’s what I meant about him not being a ‘good person’, and I really shouldn’t have put it like that because Steve is a good person. He’s a very good person. The thing is he has to try to be good, he puts a lot of effort into being good and he holds himself to very strict, very high standards and I just don’t think he’d do that shit if being good came easy. Steve has too much anger and frustration and depression for it not to be a struggle. It’s hard not lashing out when you feel that shit. Its hard to juggle forward momentum with acceptable verbal responses, but Steve does it because in his mind, its what he has to do, otherwise he’s wrong, or more wrong than he already is. That struggle is what makes him a good person, because he consistently has to choose and he consistently makes the ‘right’ choice. Steve is good, but its not inherent in the way people like to portray it. He isn’t only full of good opinions of people and he does think about what would be the easy way out and what would be the most beneficial for him, fuck everyone else. He just makes the choice to put himself last despite whatever else he thinks. The point being he thinks that shit in the first place.

Steve struggles with people, but that doesn’t mean he’s awful to be around. He does his best to hide all the shit inside him, right? So he tries to be as pleasant as he can. And although he’s not very pleasant, considering pre-serum his default is quiet and sullen looking, he’s smart as a whip and has a sharp sense of humor which can be v. attractive. He may only know how to speak in snark, but people like snark and he’s very good at choosing when and how to express himself. He’s good at choosing the right snarky thing to say at the right time, he just waits for those times. That’s why I roll my eyes when he gives Tony shit for always having an answer because hAHAHA STEVE YOU ARE exactly the fucking same in that regard. You always have an answer when people push at you and its always the best thing you can come up with at the time and you can come up with some doozies. 

And when he’s comfortable, talking comes easier and by the time he’s Cap, he’s used to snarking with people Not Bucky and doing it in a socially acceptable way. He tries to play light. Taken at face value, that’s attractive. 

I don’t think Sam or Bucky pity Steve. They think the shit he holds himself to is pretty unfair and that he should give himself a break, but they also respect how hard he tries and they respect his box because they know he needs it and its just part of who he is. They like him for who he is; imperfect, smart, funny, creative, caring. They like helping him feel at ease with himself, to help him crack open the door to the box, or even just help him feel less constrained by it. 

Sam and Bucky (pre-first avenger) are both better people than Steve is, and I mean inherently. Things come easier for them and they both know that and both respect Steve because they can recognize he’s having to try. I don’t think either of them have a hero complex. Sam helps people for a living—helping people is what he goddamn does and it isn’t for a sense of pride or superiority, its because he’s a fucking angel. People need help and he’s good at giving it and it makes him feel fulfilled. I’m sure he takes pride in his work but it’s a result of his work, not his reason for it. Bucky cares for and puts himself out there for Steve because he thinks Steve deserves that, he thinks Steve is worth that. Its something he can give him and he’s certain Steve should have that kind of loyalty. He’ll champion Steve especially because it seems like no one else will. Bucky knows all the ways Steve goes under appreciated (how hard he tries and how stubborn he is to keep going being chief among them) and it burns him up inside that this kid who has so much inside him is going unnoticed and has been convinced he has to stamp all that fire down to get by. Bucky wants Steve to be happy because not only does he like the snarky little shitlord that he is, but he also sees his potential and wants to help Steve reach it however he can. Usually he’s just making sure the kid stays alive long enough to get there, because that’s the help Steve will accept. 

So like Steve? He’s an unhappy person. But he does his absolute best not to take that out on anyone but himself. He puts the comfort of others before his own and he’s damn good at articulating (if heavily censoring) himself, so he’s not too hard to be around so long as you don’t expect him to be very energetic. He’s not used to having conversations with more than one or two people at once and he’s certainly not used to being the center of those conversations—he would avoid both of those things as politely as goddamn possible. If you can’t handle snark, he’s not gonna talk to you much and what he does say will probably be as polite as he can make it, but if you think snark is charming and can appreciate his wit, you’ll probably have a good conversation and he’ll be far more open to it. Steve’s a good guy, he’s just not very good at making himself happy so he’s honestly kinda shit at making other people happy, too. But he still tries. Steve fucking tries

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8 hours ago

7/29/14
2:05
#steve rogers #sam wilson #bucky barnes #long post #get steve a therapist 2k14

Anonymous asked:
I like the idea of someone Steve knows picking up on how unhappy he is and trying to think of how to help so one day they're like "You are not a bad person. You're a very good person who bad things have happened to." and he's like "That's from Harry Potter. That is literally word-for-word from Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix."

oh my god

oh my god yes

Not one of Sam’s more shining moments

and then Steve goes and tells Bucky about it and Bucky’s like aRE YOU KIDDING ITS FROM A BOOK HE TOLD ME THE SAME THING oh god I’ve been got. Sam got me. I fell for it, Rogers, I totally believed he was just that fucking deep and insightful. Fucked by modern pop-culture. Again.

and Steve pats his back and is like its okay bb, we’ll get you up to date, they won’t be able to fuck with you for much longer

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17 hours ago

7/29/14
5:27
#no but seriously he'd be so surly at the moment but later he'd think back and be so goddamn touched #it'd be a slow-burn but it'd stay with him #steve rogers #sam wilson #bucky barnes #Anonymous

okay one more thing then I swear I’m going to bed

the scene where Steve visits Peggy and very quietly, very simply and carefully explains the disconnect he feels, being AS VAGUE AS POSSIBLE about some extremely heavy shit that’s clearly, severely fucking with him, and he says it wITH A GODDAMN SMILE ON HIS FACE

and Peggy calls that ‘dramatic’. 

And that’s the reaction Steve was expecting

He is expecting that level of calm and censorship to be seen as dramatic. 

He was going out of his goddamn comfort zone to say that much and he got shot down and just shook his head like he should’ve goddamn known better. 

That’s as vulnerable as Steve Rogers is willing to get and that isn’t vulnerable at goddamn all. And he still wasn’t taken seriously or able to air his anxieties. And he fucking expected it, that’s why he was CENSORING HIMSELF IN THE FIRST PLACE

Like obviously I’m all goddammit Peggy, but Steve’s just as bad! He believes the same toxic shit, he’s just the one who’s suffering for it. This is just the most obvious example of how LITTLE Steve is willing to put himself out there, even with the people he loves and trusts. 

Losing more control than that? Being forced to be more open and emotional than that? Holy crap he’d beat himself up over that for fOREVER. That would be such a huge loss of control in his book. 

God his coping mechanisms suck. I’m seriously fucked up over the shitty, self-deprecating way Steve copes. LOCKING ALL YOUR SHIT IN A BOX AND PRETENDING IT DOESN’T EXIST IS NOT COPING.

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17 hours ago

7/29/14
5:17
#steve rogers #nEEDS A THERAPIST

Anonymous asked:
Imagine Natasha knowing so much about Steve from his files and her ability to read people and most importantly from being his friend, and she knows that he keeps himself in a box and he can't get out of it, and even though most of their friendly interactions involve lots of jokes and snark, after the long hug she'll periodically do things to calm him, like she'll squeeze his hand or put her hand on his arm because this big angry box of sad is her friend and she wants him to be less unhappy.

god this just reminds me that I really headcanon her as knowing that Steve is bi and all the ‘lemme find you a date’ shit is her trying to give him an opening to be honest. She’s trying to get him to peek his head outside the box and to make it look like it was his idea all along. She did the same thing when she looked at that photo of Peggie and went “who’s the girl”. Natasha fucking knows who Peggie Carter is, she was giving Steve an opening to have a real goddamn emotion, to share something with her. She baited him and he walked away and kept the door to the box closed

and it breaks my fucking heart

I really can’t see Steve knowing what to even do with that kind of physical comfort. He wouldn’t be used to it at ALL. The only person who ever touched him remotely like that is Bucky and they had years and years of trust and Steve STILL kept his walls up around Bucky. Steve was a sad-sack around the guy but he still kept the walls up. So from someone else? My kneejerk is that he would reject it, because its just not something that fits in his narrow view of how he’s able to interact with the world. Steve doesn’t like people knowing he needs help, and it’d take a lot of work for him to see Nat knowing as a okay thing, let alone a good thing. Her being able to see past his bullshit would only put him on the defensive, like its fucking proof that his walls need reinforcing. 

and like the rejection would be as casual as he could make it, but it’d be a fucking act and she’d know he’s being snarky to deflect and gOD THIS KID NEEDS THERAPY. GET STEVE INTO THERAPY.

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17 hours ago

7/29/14
4:57
#steve rogers #natasha romanov #mcu #Anonymous

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18 hours ago (via)

7/29/14
4:46
#crystals #reference

eatmypussyliketherussianfamine:

Academy Of Villains [1st Place] | Vibe XIX 2014

im catching up on my dance competition videos (i missed a lot of them this year) and i was blown away by this one. at first it starts off pretty much ehhhh but it gets better and better and then once you hit like the 4 minute mark everything is gold and once you get around 5:30 you’re so fucking hyped that everything is beautiful and nothing hurts UGHHHHHHH 

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7/29/14
4:46
#academy of villains #hOLY SHIT #youtube #video #watch this full screen you really gotta